"You are so beautiful..."
I find it very painful to care about someone so much who has such a distorted view of what love is. Painful because I want to share with him what I feel but even more so because he's missing out on what true love is. He's amazing and we connect and he gets under my skin. But it's only for those moments we have together. There's never anything to look forward to...it's all about here and now. But then again, I'll catch him looking at me from afar, often, and maybe that's just the beginning.
Good night. Thank you Ambien.