11.19 Day 59

Sharing Candy...
It's been a while. Blame it on the lack of inspiration, the preoccupation with pretending I'm 15, the frustration with the economy. But here I go, a bit overboard, for I feel I have a lot to catch up with...

























He's the biggest brat I'd ever hold hands with, but I will because of the way he looks at me.

Lola

6.22 Day 57

Dreary outside. Let's reflect...








I'm quiet today.
Lola

6.20 Day 56

Am I getting dealt a bad hand of cards or is it just me?
I can't imagine how surreal it must feel to have a vision in your mind, maybe for months, maybe years, of the kind of life you want to live, and then it actually becomes obtainable. Like it's right there, minus the few pieces you need to finish that puzzle. That's where I am...knowing exactly what I want...and playing the waiting game for the finish line. I can see it, but just don't know how soon I'll get there and if I'll have enough stamina to cross that line. I'm definitely in no position to give up or walk away. Just a bit exhausted of the process, the race, the waiting and wondering if I'm crazy for thinking I CAN do it. Maybe it's all just a dreamy notion that comes with my romantic self. Maybe I need to try harder. Or maybe it's right there and I just need to keep pushing through.

ffffound round up...










Should I move to San Francisco?
Lola

6.01 Day 53

The sun is out, but I'm just too cloudy...
I'm going to start the Master Cleanse tomorrow. I look forward to it to lose a few, gain some clarity, look like a million bucks, and hopefully kick this ongoing cold/flu/sick bs I've had since coming to NY. I just can't help but have my friend's voice in my head telling me all about the black tar shit that comes out of you when you cleanse. How exciting.

ffffound round up...








I played hooky with my girl and the fib we told rolled back right onto me. Karma's a bitch.
Lola